I’ve been lazy about updating the last two weeks. My daughter’s 5th birthday party was on the 16th, and I didn’t behave myself as much as I should have. What can I say?…I’m a sucker for Costco cake. Luckily when I weighed in I ended up at exactly the same weight as the previous week. Yay!

Then, being the control freak I am…I got mad at myself for losing a week of progress. After seeing a friend who has lost 30+ lbs in just a few months (and is looking awesome) I got more motivated, and stepped it up. I discovered Fiber One bars at Costco, munched many Boca burgers or turkey sandwiches on “Sandwich Thins” and started drinking more water. The increase in fiber really does help with feeling full. So last Monday, I weighed in with a shocking 4.4 lb loss for the week!

I don’t feel like I have been nearly as good this week, so we’ll see what happens tomorrow morning.

*Update*

Weigh-in results: -2 lbs., for a total of 16.4 lbs.!

Honestly, I am pretty annoyed today. I was irritable to begin with and then I weighed in. I feel like I busted my ass all week for 1.6 lbs. 1.6? Really!? Of course my husband weighed in and lost 5.6 after eating the same stuff. The only thing I am really happy about right now…is that I have lost 10 lbs. total. It’s been a slow process, and I gave up for 2 months…but I’m getting somewhere. Even if it’s not as fast as I would have liked it to happen.

Okay, I know I said tomorrow for the brownies…but hubby baked up a batch. Ours were 4 points each instead of 3 due to using a muffin pan for 1/12 portions instead of 1/20. Verdict: Soooo good.

The FitBit. $99 gadget, seems like a fun tool to keep up with your daily activity. I had put myself on the waiting list…then canceled my order ‘cause I can’t decide whether I will really put it to enough use. Does anyone else have/want one, or have any thoughts on it?

You know you are a fatty when all it takes for you to fall off the WW wagon is your hubby whispering “Cold Stone” in your ear.*But* the important thing is that I’m back, right? *And* I happened to get some kind of 24 hour bug last week that I can most likely credit for the fact that I somehow still lost some weight during my lazy exodus while still eating chocolate like it was going extinct.

The best part? My husband got jealous of some good friends of ours this weekend, after seeing their success from the last few months of their counting points. He came home and finally agreed to seriously count points and follow the program with me. Exactly the support I need! Their wedding is in October, and we are in the wedding party and don’t particularly want to be the ones ruining their pictures.

He also agreed to let me sign up online for the WW tools and recipes, and he said he will buy me the cheap treadmill I’ve been eying at Walmart next week if I will really use it.

I’m actually motivated, woot!

My husband’s mom and sister came to visit midway through week 3, and I cheated a bit and got sidetracked and lazy about counting points. When I weighed in, the results were exactly the same as the week before.

This morning I’m just wondering if my scale is broken. This last week (Week 4) I haven’t been counting my points, in fact I was self sabotaging because I was feeling guilty about certain parenting issues and I was so stressed out that I just decided I didn’t care. We’re talking fudge brownies, peanut butter M&M’s, chinese food, Wendy’s and In-N-Out. Yet I get on the scale cringing, and somehow even after all that crap…I still managed to lose .6 of a lb.

My husband gave me some time yesterday to get away from everything, so I went to the mall and picked up some clothes. I know you aren’t supposed to run out and do that while in the process of losing weight, but it was an opportunity for me to examine how I was really feeling about myself. I’m glad I did…today I feel ready to face the day. It’s time to start enjoying life instead of hiding in the house wishing for acceptance from people that I don’t even know.

I’m actually really excited about the fact that I escaped putting back on weight that I had worked hard to lose, and it is giving me the fuel to pick up my pieces and glue them back together. Today I will be looking for some new recipes, and I will post some links if I run into something awesome.

Oh, and here are the stats:

Starting Weight: 226.4 lbs
Weight Last Week: 221.2 lbs
Weight This Week: 220.6 lbs
Weight Change: -0.6 lbs
Total Progress: -5.8 lbs

This is completely awesome. I love that even though I can’t afford to sign up for WW online…this site has a free progress tracker, food journal, and database where you can look up the nutritional info of pretty much anything.